Still Leaving

I didn’t start this because I had everything figured out. I started it because I didn’t. Because I was trying to make sense of something that didn’t feel right, even though part of me still wanted it to work. A lot of this comes from being in that in between place. Not fully in, not fully out.Knowing something needed to change, but not feeling ready to change it yet. I’ve experienced what it’s like to feel stuck, to question yourself, and to try and make sense of a situation that keeps pulling you back in. You can know something isn’t right and still find it hard to leave. You can see it clearly one moment and doubt yourself the next. That back and forth is real. This is a mix of real experiences, thoughts, and things that have helped me start to understand it all a bit more clearly. I’m also studying in this area, which has helped me see things from a different perspective, but most of this comes from living it.